Sometimes when I look at Isaac and he is soooo cute and I can't help but wonder what Rachel would be like if she could have stayed with us. Its amazing that some of Isaac's personality seem to be coming through despite the fact that he is sleeping most of the time. I wonder what Rachel's personality would be like. I think I will also have to get used to missing Rachel all the time until I finally get to meet her again in heaven.
Isaac is such a ham. Look at his expressions! He also does all these funny things with his hands all the time. He just knows how to melt our hearts. I have noticed that his eyebrows are pretty light colored for an Asian baby and now his hair is looking light too. What is going on? My dad claimed that he had pretty light colored hair (for an Asian) when he was a kid. May be that was the reason.
Jong and I are still amazed and awed whenever we see Isaac - God's creation is just so amazing and to think He blessed us with this precious child to look after!You may notice that Isaac looks like he has been losing a bit of weight. They actually weighed him today and he weighed 768 grams (yes, just 2 days ago he weighed 786 grams, isn't that weird?). Its probably a combination of the diuretics they gave him to get rid of his water retention and also the fact that they scaled back his feeding for a few days as his stomach was getting too big and pushing his diaphram up (he was back down to 10 ml per feeding for a few days). They put him back to 12 ml now so we are hoping that he will start gaining healthy non-water weight again. Unfortunately, I don't think he will get to 1 kg by his daddy's birthday like we hoped. In fact, if he really gets surgery next week, he will most probably lose more weight as they have to stop feeding him before and after his surgery. God is really trying to teach us how to be patient because it takes a lot of patience to get through NICU with a micropreemie (can you tell I am getting just a tad impatient for him to come home with me????)!!! ^_^
God bless everyone!
Sonia
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Don't worry, dear Sonia. God understands every parent's heart 'cause He Himself is our Father. I'm still praying our dear heavenly Father show His almighty love to little Isaac and heal him without the necessary of a surgery.
Sorry to break it to you Sonia, but if Isaac were the ugliest baby in the world you would still miss him all the time! LOL By the way, I think he is adorable!
I understand the missing feelings. I have suffered a lot of loss in my life and miss those people every day...not sure that it gets better with time, but I think you grow use to the missing feeling. I don't know. The only thing that helps me is that I know that I will see my family in heaven...don't know what I would do without that.
You are so blessed to have your wonderful boy...my heart aches for your loss of Rachel, but you will see her again one day...again, not sure if that helps since I am sure you tell yourself that a million time a day.
As the Mom of a micro-preemie, what I can tell you is that the NICU is one of the most isolating and terrifying experiences you will ever go through. I would bring friends to see my "beautiful" (and he was) 1 lb. baby and see the look of horror on their faces...they just didn't get it. A lot of friends pulled away, especially those with children. I think it was hard for them to deal with the unknown, etc. I am glad that you have your church family to give you support...lean on them when you need to. And, there is a huge world-wide community of preemie parents out there, I have gotten support from them. We understand exactly what you are going through. OK, sorry I went on so long. I think of you every day!
Hugs,
Susan
Mom to Gabi, Sam, and Sagan
Sonia,
I LOVE Isaac's expressions and I do think he is the cutest thing I have seen since Alyssa (ha ha). His little fingers and smiles are so vivid in the photos. I cannot wait to meet him someday and give him a big bug and kisses.
Hope your work is going well and you are taking care of yourself.
Miss you lots,
Sabina and Chris
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