Dear all,
Isaac is still having problems with his blood pressure and circulation. The doctor tried to take him off of his blood pressure medicine last night but his condition deteriorated without the medicine so they had to put him back on. He is still struggling with chronic lung disease and his oxygen levels dropped quite a few times while we were there.
We had a scare today - Isaac's attending nurse was a different nurse that we have never met before today and when we got there, we noticed that he was positioned awkwardly and did not seem comfortable - basically, they had him propped up on his belly with his head lying sideways but they propped his belly up too high and his head too low. So we asked why they had him crunched over like that and they decided to try to prop his head a little higher. Anyway, as they moved his head to put more cotton pads under his head, he looked soooooo scared. It was so heartbreaking and really scared both Jong and I. I guess the good thing is he seems to really have the right reaction/facial expressions to everything but it was hard to see him so scared. After they did that, he was awake for almost the entire hour but did not look good. He looked completely exhausted, our poor little boy. May be he had a rough night last night as well.
As he was awake, he opened his eyes quite a bit and at times he had them pretty wide open. It appears that our boy will have pretty big eyes. I guess he might have taken after me.
Jong and I are getting pretty exhausted physically and emotionally and I know we haven't had it that rough so far. We don't know how the rest of you preemie moms do it! I am not sure if its because of the milk pumping but I get so tired at night and can't seem to stay awake between my evening milk pumping sessions, which is not the most convenient thing to do because I keep messing up the timing and having to wake up to pump milk. I hope I can stay awake better when I start working next week!
We finished writing our testimony and will be sharing our testimony in person at our church, Tokyo Baptist Church's Sunday 9 am service. We will also record our testimony on Saturday afternoon so a video of our testimony will be shown during the other 4 services. We pray and hope that God will use our testimony to reach out and touch people and may be plant some seeds and encourage people to get to know our Lord better.
Also, yesterday, on our way home from the hospital, we were listening to Amy Grant's song If You Can Only Imagine. For those of you who don't know the song, it basically talks about what being in heaven and meeting Jesus would be like. This song used to always really touch me and put a real yearning in my heart for Jesus. But yesterday as we were listening to it, I realized that since Rachel went to heaven, when I think about heaven these days, I yearn more to see her than to see Jesus. I realized that I have really sinned against our Lord by placing more importance on our babies than Him so I immediately confessed my sin and ask for His forgiveness. I am so glad that our Lord is such a forgiving God. Its amazing how I think I surrendered everything to Him one day and I start holding on too tight again the next day. I guess this is another day to day struggle and I just have to really stay on my toes and look into my heart more carefully.
Anyway, its getting late so I will sign off for now. Take care and good night,
Sonia
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Posts
3 comments:
Sonia & Jong, You two are such a blessing to us. How you are able to lift God and turn to God in your most difficult times, and to be able to praise Him! May God give the strength in both your body and mind so that you could continue to pump your milk for Issac, and that you could continue lifting God and be His witnesses!
Dear God,
Thank You Lord for your daily miracles, and we lift You up for your compassion and love.
We cry out to you: please help Issac's blood circulate better and may his lung develop strong and perfect and may you comfort Issac during his pains and exhaustions. Please protect his beautiful eyes that are like Sonia's, and please let his fragile hands grow as strong as his father's. May Your glorious plans for this world be revealed and worked through your dear servants' family.
In Jesus' name, Amen
SL
Dear Sonia,
My heart just aches when I hear of all the things that Issac goes through, but he is strong. I wish I could do more, of course you and Jong are exhausted, you have been through so very much. I think of you always and continue to say prayers. As always many hugs and take care
Allison
Hi Sonia,
It breaks my heart to read your description of Isaac's challenges and his bravery. I admire your continued strength.
They say that the Lord only gives us as much as we can take, so that must mean he believes you and Jong have the strength to withstand quite a bit.
I personally believe Jesus would be quite understanding of your desire to see Rachel. After all, Jesus is in each of us. By loving her, you are loving Him as well.
Teresa
Post a Comment