20 Weeks!!!

We made it to 20 weeks today! I woke up this morning and sang "Happy 20 weeks to you guys, Happy 20 weeks to you guys, Happy 20 weeks to Rachel and Isaac, Happy 20 weeks to to you guys" to Rachel and Isaac.

But then I started thinking - "its only been 2 weeks!!??!!" How is Rachel going to make it for at least 8 more weeks? And 8 more weeks only really gives Isaac a chance. For Rachel to make it, I think we need her to hang on in there for much longer since she is already falling behind in her growth rate and her lungs will be a lot less developed. I guess that is why I have to try to stick to taking it one day at a time. Thinking too far ahead can get scary. I also hope (and suspect) Rachel is much stronger than her mommy and daddy!

Things are pretty much the same and my condition is stable. I do wish I could see some improvement in Rachel's conditions but there doesn't seem to be much accumulation of water. Its hard to not see any improvements for her. We also have a hard time communicating with the hospital doctors because of the language barrier and we seem to hear a different story from each different doctor - yesterday, the doctor said only 1 cm of Rachel's elbow was in my cervix (her arm was supposed to be bent I guess) and today a different doctor said part of her arm IS still in my cervix so I am just confused. We don't get to see Dr. Sakamto every day and when we do, he doesn't like us to focus too much on Rachel. I guess we really, really need to trust the Lord with Rachel and be patient while waiting for Him to do His work-- much easier said than done. But we are trying our best to.

Good news is I am starting to really feel Isaac. At first I wasn't really sure it was him or just my tummy acting up but now its clear its him. Jong said he also felt small taps from Rachel when we were praying last night and his hands were on my tummy. Don't know if those light taps were really hers but would be really great if they were - it would mean that she can move a little! Both Jong and my dad also said my belly has grown bigger. I am trying to eat as much as I can as I know Rachel and Isaac have much less time than other babies to grow inside me.

I am starting to get sick of hospital food - so its a really good thing that my dad is here as he is bringing good home cooked Chinese food to supplement my meals. Also, the food the hospital serves seem very low in calories and seem more appropriate for someone who is sick than a basically healthy woman on bedrest trying to grow 2 babies inside her as fast as she can.

Anyway, we are still hanging on in there. Please keep praying for Rachel and Isaac.


Blessings,

Sonia