was Isaac's and Rachel's original estimated due date 2 years ago - the date they should have been born. They should have been 2 years old today instead of 4 months ago.
Instead Rachel is in heaven and Isaac is skin and bones and not chubby like his new full term sister Abigail.
I do feel very, very blessed 99% of the time. But right now I am missing Rachel like crazy and wishing Isaac wasn't born so early and still face so many challenges. Right now, I wish I had the chance to see Isaac and Rachel together outside of my womb. Right now, I wish I had ALL three of children on earth with me instead of having to wait till I get to heaven to see one of my three children. Right now I wish people won't so easily forget that I am a mother of 3 and a mother of twins.
But then I breathe out. My heart feels better. Because I know Jesus understands how I feel, I know He grieves with me and I know He won't forget.
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- Sonia
- Corporate Attorney who has practiced in New York, San Francisco, Tokyo, and now in Hong Kong. Also Mom to 3 babies born in April - a 23w0d micropreemie miracle boy, his angel twin sister in heaven and his younger sister who was miraculously conceived without any medical help after 8+ years of unexplained infertility and born full term.
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Hey Sonia, I'm sending hugs and prayers your way. We just passed A's original due date a couple of days ago, and I still can't help but feel sad at what she's been through, no matter how well she's doing now. I can't imagine also grieving over the loss of a twin. I'm so sorry for the pain and loss you feel. I'm glad of the assurance we have in Christ that you will see her again.
XOXO
I'm so sorry for all that you've been through, and for your pain.
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